Learning to love

What is the longest river in the world? Gotta’ be the Nile River, right? It flows 1,700 miles from Khartoum, Sudan to the Mediterranean Sea – and that is just where the White and Blue Niles meet. You can follow the White Nile south to Lake Victoria bordering Uganda… and then the arguments begin on what is the source of any river. Clearly rivers, streams, and the like flow into Lake Victoria – do you get to keep following the water flow? Even as recently as 2006 the geographers and cartographers were seeking the “headwaters of the Nile River.”  The most recent claim is a muddy hole in Nyungwe Forest in southwest Rwanda. The forest area is spectacular, the muddy hole not so much. Personally, I would have taken Lake Victoria as the headwater.  Think about it: a great lake giving greatness to the greatest river.

Not so fast! Brazil and Peru have put their cards on the table and claim that the Amazon, measured from its most distant, year-round source, is 87 miles longer than the Nile. Take that mud-hole originating river! Supporters of the Nile supremacy note that the measure includes tidal canals that are not always filled – and besides, the mighty Nile covers 2,400 miles as the crow flies while the Amazon inelegantly meanders over only 1,100 miles as the crow flies.  And the arguments fly back and forth about which river is the greatest. As one side dismisses what they view as the feeble claims of their rivals, with a wave of the hand, they each employ the old pun: “Denial is the longest river in Africa.”

Denial lurks behind our gospel today. Jesus has forewarned his disciples three different times about the destiny awaiting him in Jerusalem where he will be betrayed, suffer, be crucified, and die. Each time the disciples are in denial about the fate that awaits their Lord; they are in denial about the suffering he will face. Jesus asks them, “Can you drink the cup that I drink or be baptized with the baptism with which I am baptized?”  They boldly respond that they can – perhaps only revealing the denial in possession of them.

I think about Jesus’ response in this way: “Indeed, if you follow my way, you will indeed suffer … but don’t do it for the glory – besides that’s not mine to give. You had better pray for grace to be clear in your own mind why you are doing this because when it gets really difficult, that is what will sustain you.” It is that graced clarity that sheds light into the darkness of denial. It is that graced clarity that sustains you when it gets difficult to pick up and carry your own cross. That helps you “just do it” when you are asked to give it all away and follow the way of Christ. It is what allows you to persevere when you know that you will not be first, but will be dead last.  It is the graced clarity that sustains when denial has emptied itself and you are faced with the road of self-sacrifice and suffering.

  • At the bedside of an aging relative whose care will absorb your life.
  • The late at night, sitting at the kitchen table with bills to pay, mouths to feed, and a check book that does not stretch that far
  • The unexpected phone call comes that brings news your world will never be the same, never be what you had hoped for.
  • Haunted by the words spoken about you by your friend as you teeter between walking away and reconciliation.

Why don’t we walk away? Why do we stay? Inner fortitude? Commitment? Obligation? Promise? All good things, admirable things. Obligation can only take us so far. Taken too far, obligation for obligation’s sake can erode love and leave bitterness – and leaves us with just the suffering. So often love and suffering come along for the same ride.

Why do we stay? Why visit your loved one suffering from Alzheimer – they don’t remember you any more – your visit will make no difference. Why reconcile with someone who has taken advantage of you in hurtful ways? I think the answer is that in all these situations there is an opportunity to love. It may bring suffering. It might entail some loss. But then it might be love rooted in a new, renewed relationship, a new footing. It will take energy and time. And the journey and destination will be marked with obstacles and challenges.

We stay because we trust that the journey will teach us how to love. Will lead us past the grandeur of Lake Victoria to the true source of the living water. There we will find the living font of love coming into the world. “For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who has similarly been tested in every way…. So let us confidently approach the throne of grace to receive mercy and to find grace for timely help.” 

Mercy for the times we did not stay, but walked away. Grace for the journey to keep the darkness of denial at bay and to keep us on the way.  Today at this way station of your journey, come to the throne of the Eucharist for that mercy and grace. Come and let your “Amen” be a prayer for the Grace that teaches us to truly love with clarity and purpose.

Why do we stay?

Finding-the-NileAre you smarter than a 5th grader? OK, what is the longest river in the world? Gotta’ be the Nile River, right? It flows 1,700 miles from Khartoum, Sudan to the Mediterranean Sea – and that is just where the White and Blue Niles meet. You can follow the White Nile south to Lake Victoria bordering Uganda… and then the arguments begin on what is the source of any river. Clearly rivers, streams, and the like flow into Lake Victoria – do you get to keep following the water flow? Even as recently as 2006 the geographers and cartographers were seeking the “headwaters of the Nile River.” The most recent claim is a muddy hole in Nyungwe Forest in southwest Rwanda. The forest area is spectacular, the muddy hole not so much. Personally, I would have taken Lake Victoria as the headwater. Think about it: a great lake giving greatness to the greatest river. Continue reading

Finding the Source

Finding-the-NileAre you smarter than a 5th grader? OK, what is the longest river in the world? Gotta’ be the Nile River, right? It flows 1,700 miles from Khartoum, Sudan to the Mediterranean Sea – and that is just where the White and Blue Niles meet. You can follow the White Nile south to Lake Victoria bordering Uganda… and then the arguments begin on what is the source of any river. Clearly rivers, streams, and the like flow into Lake Victoria – do you get to keep following the water flow? Even as recently as 2006 the geographers and cartographers were seeking the “headwaters of the Nile River.” The most recent claim is a muddy hole in Nyungwe Forest in southwest Rwanda. The forest area is spectacular, the muddy hole not so much. Personally, I would have taken Lake Victoria as the headwater. Think about it: a great lake giving greatness to the greatest river. Continue reading

Passion Sunday: trials, failures, and betrayals

Jesus Condemned by michael o'brianThe Jewish Trial Before the Sanhedrin (26:57-68) The Gospel reading for Palm Sunday of the Lord’s Passion is quite lengthy and so will not be included here. It can be found at the USCCB website.

R.T France (2007, p.1016) writes, “This is the point at which Jesus’ death is sealed; all that follows involving the Roman prefect is only the formal implementation of a verdict already decided by the Jewish authorities.” This is a conflict that has been growing unabated since the beginning of Jesus’ public ministry and has reached the point where the religious authorities are simply looking for the basis upon which they can seal Jesus’ fate. But for the moment he is in their power and he Jesus has preciously little to say. The events unfold and Jesus appears as helpless before the hearing by Jewish religious leaders. It is not likely that this is a formal trial that occurs at Caiaphas’ house, but rather an ad hoc meeting of senior people to agree on, first, the need to have Jesus executed (this being a matter of Jewish law), and secondly, an appropriate tactic to induce the Roman governor to impose the death penalty (which would, of course, require a charge of which Roman law could take cognizance). The formal Jewish trial begins, as suggested by 27:1, later when the whole Sanhedrin has assembled. Whatever the official status of the gathering, the Evangelists leave us in no doubt that it was not an unprejudiced hearing, but was convened specifically to “put him to death.” Continue reading