Makes me wonder

If you spend anytime on your computer doing anyone of a variety of what today are mundane tasks, the internet (the amorphous “they” or sometimes, “them”) begins to know you, develop an algorithm about you and send you advertisements, promotions, and the like. Perhaps these things reflect you browser history and interests. Perhaps smart home devices like Alexa and Siri have been listening. Or maybe the random flotsam and jetsam of digital lives have finally been stitched together to reveal our deep identity, hidden desires, or better yet – our secret identities: mild mannered photojournalist novice Peter Parker by day and your friendly neighborhood Spider Man by night. Hard to say, difficult to know.

Why such musings? Well…. I have no idea why this morning I received this promotional email:

Unless there was some part of being a Franciscan and a parish priest about which I was not informed, I am not sure why I would be a prospective customer. Clearly I can not afford to purchase or lease such an aircraft – or pay the insurance, the fuel cost, the pilot or hanger fees. But just maybe I could “flexjet” off to my next meeting. Of course, my next meeting is at the parish approximately 0.25 miles through the woods… and I rather enjoy the walk.

I have to go to St. Louis in July for a gather of friars. I wonder if I could “flexjet” and hopscotch regional airports between here and St. Louis picking up friars to ride-share. There are a good number of friars here in the broader Washington DC area, Cincinnati (original settlement named Losantiville, in case you were wondering – now named after a dictator of the early Roman Empire – but that is besides the point… lots of friars live nearby)… I wonder if the Chicago area friars want in on the ride. Of course I would have to actually click the “Learn more” button to find out pricing… and that would add to “them” knowing more about me.

I have a good friend who works for an organization that has more than one private jet in their hangers. In chatting I have mentioned that it would be nice if they could “pick me up” on their way and drop me off. I don’t think I am being taken seriously. But it raises the possibility that “they” are monitoring my cell phone and have picked up the chatter that “flexjet” might be just the thing I need. I know that federal agencies can monitor “metadata” on calls, but I am not sure they could extract my “flexjet” needs or desires…perhaps a wiretap? That would explain a lot of things…but then that would also assume I am actually interesting enough to wiretap. I am sure that if I gave it a go I could weave any number of conspiracy plots that include private, next-level, jet service to some exotic destination. Sorry, St. Louis. A great American city I am sure… gateway to the west and all that, but Montevideo sounds more exotic. And I have been to St. Louis; never been to Montevideo. I would love to revisit New Zealand…

Of course it could all be random…like radioactive decay at the quantum level. You know true randomness is simply because we lack the right tools or information. It is fundamentally uncaused and unpredictable. Like the “flexjet” promotion in the inbox of a Franciscan friar.

By this point, you might be thinking, “where is all this going?” Most likely answer: nowhere. But then again you are reading a blog with “musings” in the title…just saying..

The Voice

This coming Sunday we celebrate the Baptism of the Lord.  “And a voice came from the heavens, saying, ‘This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased.’” (Mt 13:17). The voice from heaven speaks the words that are repeated at the scene of the Transfiguration (Mt 17:5) and reveal God’s proclamation of Jesus’ full identity. After Jesus’ acceptance of John’s baptism as the will of God for him, God declares his pleasure because of the obedience and more fundamentally, declares the unique relationship between God the Father and his Son.

The words of the declaration are usually understood to be derived from one or both of Isa 42:1 and Ps 2:7.  “Here is my servant whom I uphold, my chosen one with whom I am pleased.” (Isaiah 42:1) and goes on to say that God has put his Spirit upon him, which links closely with what we have seen in v. 16.  “You are my son; today I have begotten you.” (Ps 2:7) in which God addresses his anointed king

The echo of both passages lend themselves to Matthew’s focus of fulfillment passages. While his primary fulfillment focus will be Jesus as the One to come, greater than Moses, Matthew is attentive to other fulfillments: son, servant, king.

As R.T. France points out: “God is not quoting the OT, nor setting a puzzle for scripturally erudite hearers to unravel. He is declaring in richly allusive words that this man who has just been baptized by John is his own Son in whom he delights. From this point on Matthew’s readers have no excuse for failing to understand the significance of Jesus’ ministry, however long it may take the actors in the story to reach the same christological conclusion (14:33; 16:16; 26:63–64). It will be this crucial revelation of who Jesus is which will immediately form the basis of the initial testing which Jesus is called to undergo in 4:1–11: “If you are the Son of God …” (4:3, 6). And there, as in the account of the baptism, Jesus’ sonship will be revealed in his obedience to his Father’s will.” (Matthew, 124)


Image credit: The Baptism of Christ, Juan Fernández de Navarrete, “El Mudo” | Museo del Prado, Madrid | Wikimedia Commons | PD-US

Overcoming Fear with Faith: A New Year’s Reflection

It’s a new year and each time January brings a mixture of hope and anxiety. We have hopes for 2026, but we carry unresolved worries, unanswered questions, and fears that did not politely stay behind in 2025. The readings for today come at the right time.

In the Gospel, the disciples are doing exactly what Jesus told them to do. He sent them ahead in the boat. And yet obedience has not spared them fear. They are exhausted, battered by the relentless wind and just can’t make any headway – sound familiar? Then they are confronted with something they cannot interpret: Jesus walking toward them on the sea. This is way out of their comfort zone; they think it is a ghost and are terrified. We know those moments when we are out of our comfort zone and the unexpected initiates a fear response. Fear distorts perception. Like the apostles, when we are afraid, even the saving presence of God might be perceived as threatening. What is meant to help us can feel like something that will overwhelm us.

At the start of 2026, maybe our fears are not as dramatic as the apostles – maybe they are. Great or small, the fear, the uneasiness we might sense is real:

  • fear of instability in the economy, the end-of-January potential shutdown of the government, inflation, and more;
  • fear of illness, aging, or decline – those small aches and pains that no longer resolve themselves;
  • fear of loneliness, being misunderstood, or left behind –  our friends moving, passing away, or in their decline, no longer recognize us.
  • Fear that a loved one has reached the end of their earthly life.
  • …name the fear that lurks in your life. We all have them.

Like the disciples, we are rowing hard and making little headway, and we wonder what’s next.

It is into these moments that Jesus speaks – then and now: “Take courage. It is I. Do not be afraid.”

Those words, “It is I,” are not casual reassurance. In the Greek they echo the divine name — “I AM.” Jesus is not simply saying, “It’s okay.” He is saying, “God is here.” The One who comes toward them across the chaos is not a ghost, not an illusion, not a threat, but the living presence of God entering their fear. Notice that He does not shout instructions from a distance. He gets into the boat. And only then does the wind die down.

That is crucial for us. God does not usually remove our fears by eliminating all danger or uncertainty. He removes fear by sharing our vulnerability. Love steps into the boat. This is exactly what the Letter of John names so clearly: “There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear.”

Fear is sinful or a sign of weak faith. Love does mean never feeling afraid. Jesus tells us something more realistic and more hopeful: fear loses its power when we allow ourselves to be loved and when we choose to love in return. Think about it: fear makes us close us in on ourselves. We become defensive, cautious, and suspicious. Love does the opposite. Love opens us up and makes room for others. Love steps into the boat even when gale winds continue and the wave unrelenting. Love is what can make fear loosen its grip.

We don’t have to love perfectly or fearlessly. It is enough that we love faithfully. It is in the active decision to love that we become free and more easily live a life of patience, generosity, forgiveness, and hope. Our vision clears and we recognize Christ in our midst and in others.

Maybe a prayer for our mornings might be, “Lord, get in the boat with me. Still the storms or at least give me the courage to not need to control, but to love freely. Your presence is stronger than my fear.”


Christ stilling the storm on the Sea of Galilee | Ludolf Bakhuizen | 1695 | Indianapolis Museum of Art | PD

On St. John

Consider what is said to you: Love God. If you say to me: Show me whom I am to love, what shall I say if not what Saint John says: No one has ever seen God! But in case you should think that you are completely cut off from the sight of God, he says: God is love, and he who remains in love remains in God. Love your neighbor, then, and see within yourself the power by which you love your neighbor; there you will see God, as far as you are able.

Begin, then, to love your neighbor. Break your bread to feed the hungry, and bring into your home the homeless poor; if you see someone naked, clothe him, and do not look down on your own flesh and blood.

St. Augustine

Devotion in Daily Life

Hear, O Israel! The LORD is our God, the LORD alone! Therefore, you shall love the LORD, our God, with your whole heart, and with your whole being, and with your whole strength. Take to heart these words which I command you today. Keep repeating them to your children. Recite them when you are at home and when you are away, when you lie down and when you get up. (Dt 6:4-7)


Image credit: Jetpack AI Assistant generated art, Jan 2, 2026

Gaudete Sunday – Isaiah 35 in Context

The first reading for Gaudete Sunday is taken from Isaiah 35: “The desert and the parched land will exult; the steppe will rejoice and bloom. They will bloom with abundant flowers, and rejoice with joyful song.” It is a message of radiant hope, but this chapter does not arise in a peaceful moment. Its beauty comes precisely because it follows a very dark and threatening context.

Isaiah 34 is a chapter of devastation and judgment carrying one of the most severe judgment oracles in the entire book. It describes:

  • God’s judgment upon Edom, a symbol of all nations hostile to God.
  • Land turned into a burning pitch.
  • Streams turned into tar.
  • A wilderness inhabited only by wild animals and demons.
  • A world of chaos, desolation, and hopelessness.

Isaiah 34 begins with: “Draw near, O nations, to hear… He will hand them over to slaughter.” It ends with a picture of a land emptied and cursed. Isaiah 34 is the image of the world ruined by sin, human violence, and divine judgment.

Isaiah 35 is the surprise of reversal: hope rising from devastation. Against the backdrop of that scorched, cursed wasteland, Isaiah suddenly proclaims: “The desert and the parched land will exult; the steppe will rejoice and bloom.” This is not sentimental poetry. It is a proclamation that God’s mercy has the final word, not desolation. The land that looked dead will come back to life. People who felt abandoned will be restored. Judgment is not the end; renewal is. God transforms the desert created by human sin into a garden created by divine grace.

The historical setting is that Jerusalem and all of Judah is under the threat of Assyrian domination. Chapters 28–39 reflect the time when the Assyrian Empire is expanding southward, already having conquered the 10 northern tribes. In the south, people feel helpless, afraid, and uncertain whether God will save them. The political and religious leadership has a track record of leadership failure. As a result Jerusalem seems vulnerable and the people are disheartened and spiritually weak. Chapters 28–33 are a series of oracles of woe, warnings against foreign alliances instead of trusting in God, and rebukes for spiritual blindness of leaders and people alike. 

The crisis is quite real and existential. Assyrian invasion and victory means exile, destruction, and the end of the nation. Into this atmosphere of anxiety and judgment comes the promise of chapter 35 which mirrors the structure often seen in Isaiah: pending judgment but with the promise of hope and delivery. Isaiah 35 is a deliberate contrast to the darkness that precedes it.

Because it follows a vision of utter ruin, Isaiah 35 is proclaiming:

  • God can bring joy from sorrow.
  • God can create life where everything seems dead.
  • No desert—literal or spiritual—is beyond God’s power to transform.
  • Exile and fear will not have the last word.
  • The journey home (35:8–10) is guaranteed by God’s own mercy.

Isaiah 35 is both a climax of hope after chapters of threat, and a transition toward the great consolation of Isaiah 40: “Comfort, give comfort to my people.” Against the backdrop of despair, God announces an unexpected future filled with joy, healing, return, and redemption. That is why Isaiah 35 is chosen for the Third Sunday of Advent, Gaudete Sunday: because in the middle of the darkness and weariness of life, God makes the desert bloom.


Image credit: Prophet Isaiah, Mosaic, Right of Lunette, South Wall of Presbytery, Basilica of San Vitale | PD-US | scripture image from Canva CC-0

The Franciscans in China

Writing earlier about St. Francis Xavier, I was reminded about a Franciscan missioner, John of Montecorvino, whose feast was November 29. Mention John of Montecorvino and most people – even most Franciscans – will say “who?” John was the first Catholic missionary to China, centuries before the efforts of other Catholic religious orders. It is a compelling story.  If you would like to read an interesting and accessible account of the travel within the context of an art historian comparing 13th century Italian and Chinese art, read Lauren Arnold’s: Princely Gifts & Papal Treasures: The Franciscan Mission to China & Its Influence on the Art of the West, 1250-1350 – fascinating book.

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Blessed John Duns Scotus

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November 8th is the feast day of Blessed John Duns Scotus, a Franciscan friar from Scotland noted for his theological and philosophical work in the high-middle ages (late 13th and early 14th centuries). Scotus’ work was in the generation that followed Thomas of Aquinas and Bonaventure. His work was complex and nuanced, and he is generally considered to be one of the three most important philosopher-theologians of his time. He was given the medieval accolade Doctor Subtilis (Subtle Doctor) for his penetrating and subtle manner of thought.

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Kyushu, Kamikaze, and Estimate Losses

This is an addendum to the “Olympic Decision” post. It continues the thread of thought that suggests President Truman left the June 18, 1945 without a firm answer to expected losses – not to say he wasn’t briefed later. But it also addresses the historians who offer that post-war Truman inflated the estimated US losses associated with an invasion to “more than a million.”

In the earlier article it was posited that based on Japanese troop strength on Kyushu by the end of July and a casualty rate similar to Okinawa, there would be an estimated 792,000 allied casualties. By and large those are ground force casualties and do not account for shipboard naval losses. In Admiral Nimitz’s early May estimate, his planning staff projected massive losses due to kamikaze attacks: 25 aircraft carriers, 10 battleships, and 40 cruisers and destroyers. Japanese documents and testimony of naval leadership indicated that the Kyushu kamikaze efforts would be primarily aimed at troop transports and supply ships. The troop ships (Attack Transport-AP) varied in size but this will give you an idea of the capacity. 

CampaignNumber of APsTotal TroopsAverage per AP
Marianas7080,0001,150
Leyte200+170,000850
Iwo Jima6670,000850
Okinawa300+180,000600-1,000
Kyushu (est.)~975~780,000~800
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The Feast of St. Clare of Assisi

Peter said to Jesus, “We have given up everything and followed you. What will there be for us?” Jesus said to them, “Amen, I say to you that you who have followed me, in the new age, when the Son of Man is seated on his throne of glory, will yourselves sit on twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel. And everyone who has given up houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or lands for the sake of my name will receive a hundred times more, and will inherit eternal life.”  (Mt 19:27-29)

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